Tuesday, October 13, 2009

wow

My friend Cutzi has 3 little kids, all within 3 months of my little ones. She just adopted her 3rd tiny baby, Xochi just a few month before I had Sam. (her stories of their adoptions are so inspiring and Spirit led. Definitly worst a read).

When I was reading her blog a few months back, she wrote this. I thought, oh man, I'm in for it.

Today I had that day. That day where I'm so exhausted at the end of the day that I can barely hold my head let alone clean the kitchen.

I wish I could say that I made it through the day patient and kind, but around 6 p.m. those attributes flew out the window. I felt overwhelmed and on sensory overload. At one point I thought locking myself in the bathroom sounded like a great idea. I'm fairly certain that one of my children will need counseling.

I'm thankful tomorrow is a new day. I'm thankful that Lily is potty trained and it took little effort on my part. I'm thankful that I'm learning how to parent Eloise (with her emotions and all) and love her as my first born daughter. I'm thankful for a husband that partners with me on all of this. And most of all I'm thankful that God gives me grace and mercy in small ways throughout the day.

4 comments:

Jodi said...

Yep. I remember when Cutzi wrote that post and thinking, "She just said everything that I DON'T HAVE TIME to say." It was pretty spot on.

I also think often about her statement that it feels good to fall into bed exhausted every day. It does. And we're exhausted for really good reasons.

You're doing a great job! You're such a patient mom; even if you have your moments. I snapped at Jack today too. He was quick to forgive me. :)

amanda said...

you are a beautiful mama - filled with such grace. and amazing perspective.

Kate said...

Oh man we are having that week too. My counselor always reminded me that changing seasons brings on lows for people emotionally, kind of a funk, so to speak. I'm trying to remember that, but oh it's overwhelming! Hang in there!

The Hansen Family said...

Even when you snap sometimes, those kids are SO loved & they know it- that's the important thing. :)