waiting

I'm still here waiting for this tiny little boy to arrive. My dates are fairly accurate but I'm not one of those people that is on a normal cycle, usually long. So that being said, I don't feel like the date is all that off of where it should be.

I remember waiting for Eloise to arrive. I was a week late and going absolutely crazy. I could have run someone over with my car I was so impatient. But it was my first baby. I was waiting to meet this person (we didn't know the sex) and was dilated to a 4 for 2 weeks. I also suffered from a horrible rash called PUPP's. It was simply awful. When I heard a friend of mine due 2 weeks after me had her baby before me, I came unglued. I felt like that episode of Friend's where Rachel watches all the other women have their babies before her. Maddening.

I know what lies ahead this time. I'm already a mother and I know how it feels to hold a little newborn. So when everyone around me is anxious, it makes me retreat to a place of complete peace. Maybe it's a way to counter balance everyone else, but so far it's working wonders at keeping the peace for those around me.

Tuesday is the day I have given myself to start thinking of ways to induce. But to be honest, it freaks me out. I just want to go into labor naturally and not know when. To know when, is almost too much for me to cope with.

As a family, we have enjoyed our time with the girls and continue to seek the Lord in this time of waiting. There have been amazing blessings that the Lord has bestowed upon us and we are so thankful that we had the opportunity to experience them.

So we continue to wait....