a reason for being tired

Dave got the job full time!!!! This is such a blessing and he is super jacked to be working at Parliament. It's a great group of people and we feel that the Lord has led us right to this place.

While Dave was working on figuring out if this job was a right fit, I was adjusting to life at home full time with the kids. This was a first for me b/c Dave was always home during the day before.

I started to feel extremely tired. I figured it was because of Sam crazy sleeping habits. So we made the effort to work on him sleeping longer stretches. When I was finally getting stretches longer than 3 hours I was still heavily fatigued. And it took me at least and hour to fall asleep despite being thoroughly exhausted.

With sleep deprivation came shaky hands. Tremors. Then I was feeling irritable and having several anxiety attacks. Then let's throw in insatiable appetite while trying to lose weight. I felt like I was going crazy. I thought I was hitting postpartum 6 months into having a baby. I know it's possible, but I didn't suffer from it with Lily or Eloise.

I asked some friends I knew who had struggled with anxiety and depression after kids. But something just didn't sound right. A friend suggested I have my thyroid tested.

I had a blood test done last week and found out I have Graves' disease (hyperthyroidism). I have almost every symptom (besides goiter - thankfully). My mom had this and heredity is one of the main contributors.

I haven't had relief from the symptoms but I feel a huge sense of peace knowing that there is a solid reason behind what I'm feeling. My hands still shake, my heart beats irregularly, and I don't sleep well. I have an appointment this week to figure out the medication plan. Until then, my mom is coming to help and I've got some play dates lined up.